Radical Softness

I stumbled upon a tweet from Isa Garcia recently, where she shares a photo seemingly from a James Michael Nichols:


Society nowadays tells us that it’s kadiri to show emotions, and that we have to be tough and strong–never at the “losing” end of any relationship. And oh, I just couldn’t disagree more. I’m a proponent of platonic kilig as I believe in “expressive” display of affection towards people we care about, even if they are not our romantic lovers.

Thanks to social media and some rude comedians we watch on TV, it’s become a common practice to be vocal about our hatred and dislike of things (and even people). It seems that if it’s a criticism or a form of disapproval, we go straight ahead and express ourselves–no holds barred.

If we could just be as brave and blunt about expressing love, care and concern towards others, then I think there’d be peace on Earth. I’m preaching to myself here as well, since the many years of people frowning upon my “being emotional” is something I’m still battling.

May we not be afraid for our love to fall on deaf ears. May we not be afraid for our love to be rejected. May we not be afraid for our love to be taken for granted. As cliche as it may sound, love–especially love expressed–really is all we need.

(via Daily Prompt: Express)


John 14:27

I’ve been complaining for the past two weeks about how tired I am with everything that’s happening. I’m used to all this crazy running around, but my plate has never been as full as it is now. I am honestly so overwhelmed, but I am trying so hard to be calm and collected on the outside as I know that a lot of people are “looking at me”. I don’t want to bring discouragement to those I work with.

Today though, I felt an intense sense of unrest. I started palpitating, and I feel like my brain ran a marathon with how agitated it is. I rummaged Youtube for a worship song that can calm me down and I remembered Steffany Gretzinger’s Letting Go. It’s a lovely song, but I did not get appeased because I just ended up singing along. Through some stroke of God’s divine intervention though, Youtube auto-played (I normally hate it when that happens) and I ended up listening to same artist’s song called Cecie’s Lullaby. How timely it is for me to hear this song for the first time today of all days! Listening to it on loop feels like hearing God sing John 14:27 to me over and over again.

Here are the song’s lyrics:

Call my name
And I will answer/listen
All you need
It’s here inside my arms
Just breathe/sleep
And you’ll be safe and sound with me

No one knows you better than me
No one’s been a better friend

So rock-a-bye baby
Come and rest
You’ve been tired lately
Lay your head down
Don’t you think, baby
I know best
I’ve been a father
For a long time

What a blessing. It’s just so awesome and is such a blessing when someone makes utter sense and puts into perfect words what you want to say, or what you need to hear.

In addition to me stumbling upon this song, I also found another video while looking for a “live” version. There’s this clip of a mom singing to her newborn baby who seems to be sick and stuck with lots of medical apparatus. Here’s a link so you can see it for yourself:

I just bawled when I saw this. Other than feeling compassion for the baby (whom I hope is doing better now!!! huhuhu), I imagined myself in the position of the child with God singing to me like the mother. He sees how bruised and tired and wounded we are, and He is just overflowing with love for us and wants us to trust Him that’s He’s got this–He knows what’s best for us. And, though I forget it sometimes, I personally believe that seeing us hurt also breaks the Lord’s heart (Psalm 24:18). So yes, Meki. Trust God when He says that you can find your rest in Him.

Hello, I’m Dory

I have to be honest. I have the attention span of a goldfish. Dory of Finding Nemo (though not a goldfish) was never cute/adorable to me ’cause he reminded me too much of myself. I’m easily bored and ever so curious–and yup, I may have visited 3 other websites before finishing typing that sentence.

I used to be so proud of my multitasking skills, but I now realize the terrible effect it has on my focus and discipline. At any point in time, I can have 10 tabs open in my browser. You’ll also find me eating, typing up an e-mail, checking Facebook, or daydreaming while attending a conference call. I used to enjoy listening to music while working, but I’ve become so easily distracted that I cannot function with any background music at all. I’d end up singing along or humming the tune, which will flip my brain into music mode and make me lose focus in what I’m doing.

A friend recently advised that I might be spreading myself out too thinly. I definitely agree. I think part of why I’m so distracted is that I have so much on my plate that I need to pay attention to everyday. That requires me to shift gears every 30 minutes or so to think about what I need to do next. What a perfect way to enhance my almost-ADD! /sarcasm

I just took an online test on attention span and most questions made me laugh as I knew that I didn’t have to wait for the result to know that I have issues:

  • Do you get distracted easily (e.g. by background noise, other people’s conversations, etc.)? Uh, yes.
  • How often are you late for work or an appointment? Almost always. And yes, this is usually because I get distracted by something else when I really should already be leaving for said appointment.
  • How often do you catch yourself daydreaming at work? It’s my hobby and skill.
  • Do you jump from task to task because you just can’t seem to focus long enough to finish one completely? Yes. I’m not a proponent of the “finish the major task, then the minor tasks” concept. I dip my feet slowly into each task I need to do for the day.
  • How do you deal with boring, repetitive tasks? It’s fine for a very short period of time, but I’d likely need a break every five minutes hahahahaha.
  • You’re on the phone with a friend just as your favorite TV show starts. How difficult would it be for you to pay attention to the conversation? I will end the conversation or pause the show. I pause the shows I watch whenever I have to process a thought/idea by talking to myself. Yes, I’m a weirdo.
  • When reading a book or magazine, how often do you find yourself re-reading the same paragraph or skipping ahead? Huhuhuhuhu always happens to me because I usually read through a paragraph and then forget what I just read.

There were 2-3 more questions, but since this is getting long, let’s go to the result…


That said, please call me out whenever I get distracted by…ooh, a bird!

(via Photo Challenge: Ooh, Shiny!)